| Celebrating | Wednesday, Jul. 05, 2006 at
12:31 a.m. |
Saturday marked the one year anniversary of my moving out of my parents' house. It's a strange feeling, realizing it's been a year already. A year of paying rent, buying my own groceries, taking care of my cats, worrying about insurance, and generally being an adult. I hadn't realized how much moving out matured me. Granted I still eat Spaghettios and watch cartoons and shirk off laundry as long as I can, but I think that's just part of who I am. Regardless, it's amazing where the past year has brought me. I moved out, I went through a depression, I got out of said depression, I found love, I got a job, I moved, I left said job, and I found out that all the things I'm feeling are real this time. Completely real.
I finally feel like a human being, like I'm a part of this world. I'm still different, a little odd and a little weird, but I'm not a child anymore. I'm finally living real life... and it's not so bad. I have my financial issues, I have my worries, I get the "ugh I don't want to go to work" feeling, but I'm living it. I'm making it. The future is a bit scary, but it's there for me. I don't have a meaningless existence anymore. It feels good.
I have one more year at least in Albuquerque before I hopefully depart from New Mexico. It may not be permanent, but it'll at least be long enough for me to figure out a career I actually like and want to persue. I'm going to try and make the best out of it. I introduced Jen to the GEOS project which would allow her to teach in Japan. If she nails it, I may be alone in a few months. That will be tough, but I'll just have to either make more friends or just hang in there until I can move.
It feels good to be so far along, regardless. Now if only I could get my money situation under control so I can start saving...
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My name is Heather. I'm 23 years old. I have two cats, a boyfriend, and a
job at a local erosion control and compliance firm. I live on my own in Albuquerque, New
Mexico. I really don't intend to spend the rest of my life here-- just long enough that I
can find somewhere else and know where I'm going with my life.
This is my diary. I have a journal on LiveJournal, but that's become an uninviting place
for me to write personal entries. Here, I feel more free to do so. Perhaps this is because
I know only people who care enough not to hold anything against me anyway would go out of
their way to read this. I'm not sure. Regardless, it's good to be back.
Feel free to drop me a note if you'd like to. I'm pretty friendly. If not, that's fine,
too. I don't mind having silent readers. The whole comment counting thing is something I
want to get away from anyway. If you're confused, try checking out the cast page, where you
can learn about me, my friends, and the other people I talk about here.
Thank you for visiting! ¢¾
